Rant/Compain

Yelling at me for things I didn't do and making me feel like shit... I was "rude" and I hurt her feelings. Maybe if she would have said something, I could have fixed it. HE didn't need to fucking snap at me for 20 minutes and tell me that I mean and rude and disrespectful. This lady pops up out f nowhere after 8 years and wants to help clean the entre house and brings obnoxiously loud kids with her but /I'M/ rude!?

I'm sorry I'm not some social butterfly who wants to be friends with the entire fucking world... That's not me... But, me isn't good enough anymore...

Not really a rant but..
My mom works with these two ladies, Ashley and Erica and they're sisters. Erica is a total bitch and she has a daughter around my age DesMarie who I talk to and used to hang out with. Her mom doesn't fucking give her the time of day and she's depressed and she cuts herself and hits herself and just has breakdowns every day and her mom won't take her to therapy or counselling or anything so all she had to talk to was Ashley, but she has kids of her own and it's hard enough with them all and to watch Des was just a lot so obviously she couldn't constantly be there but she really did try. Mom just came home, Des in the hospital right now and when she gets out they're putting her into a mental institution where, only her parents can visit her once a week for 45 minutes because she just tried to kill herself..

Okay so her exact words were "Go clean out your closet throw away any clothes that you don't wear or don't fit" That took like 5 seconds because there's only three shirts I have that don't fit and so I was like okay done and she got all pissed off and said "I said you needed to clean your room its a mess     and I know you didn't clan out your closet already"

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Bitch.

Pauline has boy drama/love issues:

My man NEVER has the nerve to call me or say "I love you" or sweet things to me on my fb wall :C. He always text me everyday. I just tell him that he should call me and then he's like "Okay, I'll call you". Why doesn't he call me out of nowhere just to talk to me?

I just...I just...:C

*sigh* Pauline's first world problems....

I feel like a clingy pushy gf to him. I think I should stop feeling that way....

You should talk to him about how it makes you feel.

Thanks girl, I should by the next time he calls me.

Of course. And, if he doesn't call you, you should call him but don't call him and be like "We need to talk," it'll freak him out.

Yeah, that's true.

Just have a normal conversation and bring it up when there's a good moment for it to fit.

And, it took me until that first post there to realize your name is Pauline. //slow xD

Yeah, that's true :3

Me and him usually talk on the phone from cell. Thankfully, it's not his home number. Otherwise, it's going to be awkward.

Yeah ^-^
My real name is Pauline. It's usually Popup.

Well that's good at least, don't need someone else picking up the phone.

I know, that's why I didn't think anything of it. You always use Pauline though and it just hit me that it's your name. I feel so slow. xD I like the name Pauline though. ^^

Back in the day when I was with Yamil his family would always answer first. I would always feel awkward saying "Can I talk to Yamil, please? Thank you". I just feel awkward about it. Sometimes I'm scared talking over the phone. It's nerve wracking D;

I know right? It's a very unique name. It's an exotic name to use. I like it too. It's a French name :3.

I hate when I call for someone and someone else picks up. It's so weird! D= It's like "Umm, hi, I don't want to talk to you.."

Fancy. xD

It feels awkward for me. I just start sweating and I feel so nervous like always. I'm social awkward in person. I have some kind of speech impairment too. That's why I went to speech therapy throughout my whole life.

Yeah xD.

Just take your time and try to relax. Everyone gets nervous sometimes.

Thank you and I will ^^

Mhmm. I know it can be rough but normally you work yourself up over nothing. I've done it before too.

Same here.

Sometimes I over think things and I get upset/mad.

I don't do that very often but, I know it's really hard not to sometimes. You just have to remind yourself about the reality of things and that you're blowing it out of proportion.

Yeah, that's actually true though.

Just take it slow or try righting everything out so you can look at it. That might help.

Yeah, I've been doing that lately and it actually helps. I've been looking into the positives too :3

Well good. It helps to make a list of good things.

Yeah :3