Rant/Compain

I know that feeling too... I'm sorry...

D= ...

@Frances:
my dad is always saying how he has the coolest kids and that he wouldn't last a day without us, but I find that hard to believe considering the fact that I've been pushed so far away...

@Kintoshi;
I-m sure I'll get used to it eventually...

You'll get use to it... *is an example* but, that doesn't mean it doesn't suck and that it doesn't hurt.. But, we're always here for you, you know that.

I don't like it....they started the gift opening thingy without me. They didn't even care to tell me, they didn't even notice me just walking away...not even the fucking dog wants to be around me...

That's how it goes... Then they get mad at you for not wanting to be around them.

It's so stupid....I'm hearing everyone downstairs being a nice happy family....

You remember that one time that I was perfectly fine and then depressed five minutes later?

Yeah...

Now you know why. We were all sitting in the living room, quiet, and then I left for five minutes and they were all having a good time.

Makes someone feel so unloved....It makes me wonder if they'd notice if I left....

Yeah, I know... Well, I would hope so, no one noticed when I did..

Aw...

I left a note, in red fucking sharpie on the fridge saying I left and why and no one came to look for me for three hours. I was down on the golf course, in like two feet of snow and it was still snowing. I went back to the apartment and sat in the hall for like 10 minutes before the door opened for someone leaving to come and find me.

Geez, I feel like if someone shot you dead they wouldn't fucking notice till things weren't clean/cooked. .-.

The only people that would notice are us, and Sarah.

....

At least we all found each other and have this family.

I think everybody forgot about me. I'm not at least bit suprised that this post is going to be erased. Let me get this straight.

A) I'm not with "you know who" anymore. All of it, is over. It's already in the past. Please forget about it. Please forgive me. That was a very bad mistake I've ever made. Everyone makes mistakes and everyone deserves second chances. Please believe me.

B) Me and Yamil broke up 2 months ago. Again, it's offically over. It's because he lives too far away = distance.

C) I'm with a Nick named Nick. He's the love of my life. He deserves me. He actually treats me right. One problem he lives I'm Texas and he's trying to save money to see me. I love with with all of my life. He's my Timelord, my Roman soilder that waited 2,000 years to keep me safe under harm's way. I really do. I'm still madly in love with Nick anyways.

D) The whole entire reason I left is because I felt nobody was there for me anymore. I felt like nobody cared about me in here. Everytime I post something I get erased and I honestly I feel like shit. Why do you think I left the first place. I felt left out. I felt like nobody cared about me Including you guys, you guys didn't know I was gone. So I left almost a year ago. It seemed like forever.

Well, hello again.

We were having trouble with posts poofing for a while. .-.

Sounds pretty shitty though.

I'm sorry I left earlier though

Oh so it was problems with the post? I thought I did something D:

Hey girl :)

Shit happens.

For a while posts would just like POOF. You didn't do anything.

Oh I guess I overreacted in the past anyways.

I see.

I'm sorry you have a hard time in your life girl

It's fine. Like I said, shit happens.

Eh, I'm working through it. Everyone here has been a big help with that.

Okay then :)

That's good, did you try seeing a family counselor? :)

Yesterday it was my birthday, I'm 19.

In my life, a lot of things had changed :). I got my permit, I stopped cutting 5 months ago (my fingernails). I passed all of my classes in college. I'm going to college level classes. I got my confirmation/communion. Graduated highschool a year ago. I grew wiser, smarter. More cautious than before. It's all good :)